Attention TBS – !

Meet the Browns is SO not Everybody Loves Raymond.

YES – I currently have the series DVDs listed on my Kaboodle. BUT – There are A LOT of weekdays between now and Christmas.

BRING BACK Raymond!

Thank You.

It’s Friday… It’s been a loong week and I needed this. Maybe it will help to renew your spirit too.

P.S. I’m engaged.

For months now I have been replaying a scene in my head from a mystery (to me ’cause I can’t recall the title) 80’s movie.

The scene (the way I remember it): Little cassette tape sized robots fly out of the wall tiles in a greasy diner… I think the diner is located in New York City or Chicago… or somewhere. And, I seem to remember Wilford Brimley playing a part in the movie. Any guesses?

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Rachael saved my life the other day when in the middle of lunch she exclaimed: “the movie you were thinking of is Batteries Not Included!” Do you remember this 80’s gem?

You can bet that as I type this I am multi-tasking by searching NetFlix to see if they have this DVD available… and YES! yes they do have it and I have added it to my queue!

Movies most like Batteries Not Inlcuded!?
Howard the Duck
Cocoon I & II
Short Circuit
Critters
Bill & Ted’s Excellent Adventure

I think an 80’s movie marathon weekend is in my future!

P.S. Sadly, Wilford Brimley is not in this particular feature…

JUST IN CASE: You thought that last post was too mopey*

Yes, I miss SO much about california.

Yes, this move has been HARD.

Yes, I am often occasionally bummed out… when I get in a funk and choose to reminisce and be whiney instead of pulling myself out of said funk.

BUT

I WOULDN’T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY.

MAJOR life changes are all just part of growing up. I don’t think we ever stop growing up. Right now I am experiencing growing pains. MAJOR life changes are beautiful. In the moment they stretch you and test you and leave you feeling TOTALLY out of control. But, every trial ends eventually. And, we are BETTER for having persevered! Yes, there have been times when I have been sad. In fact, I know that I will continue to be sad at times. But, there hasn’t been a SINGLE moment when I asked myself; “what have I done?” NOT once.

Arizona is where I WANT to be. Arizona is where I NEED to be. Arizona is LOVE.

Orange County is where I began my “big girl” journey and I cling to a TON of amazing people and awesome memories from my time there.

BUT, the OC is where I had my heart broken for the first time. The OC is where I cared for my Nanny, lost my Nanny, grieved my Nanny and memorialized my Nanny. The OC is where I got into a car accident that cost me a best friend and my jeep. The OC is where I struggled through depression, alcohol addiction and too many bad decisions to count. The OC is where I found my Father and lost my Father… in one day. We had a great run, my city and me… but in relationships, when you are no longer able to separate the good from the bad.. you take a break. you take some time. to think. time is good. But, I’ll be back. I know we’ll be together again…

*his blog is a place where I come when I need to vent. This blog is a place where I come when I need to reflect. This blog is a place where I come when I need to dump my feelings. Generally, after my visit I feel A LOT better. I am sorry if I don’t visit here in a happy mood more often.

I miss my peeps. I miss grilled cheese and conversation @ the GO Cafe. I miss my town. I miss my Tucker. I miss Panera Bread. I miss my cute little apartment. I miss good produce. I miss the crisp ocean breeze. I miss Jan’s ginger chocolate chip cookies. I miss La Capilla. I miss Mother’s Market. I miss 2 cheeseburger meals and Rock of Love with Mrs. Casalegno. I miss my radio stations. I miss knowing where I’m going when I get in my car. I miss SO much by being here.  I miss movies with the girls.

I feel forgotten.

I LOVE my handsome, sweet, generous man. And, if I was still in California, I would be missing HIM.

So, what do you choose?

This move has been hard.

DEATH to Diets

So, it’s week two of my diet healthy eating/regular exercise ”plan”.

Over the last few weeks, Summer has slowly been packing up his 118 degree weather in preparation for his vacation (I like to call Winter).. thus granting us Arizonians some (a very tiny amount of) relief.

This got me thinking.. Thinking about the fact that soon, I will have to swap cute, little dresses and flip flops for yummy sweaters and jeans.. and flip flops..

The jeans I speak of haven’t fit since before I moved to Arizona.

How did I get to this place again? Completely NOT in control of what I put in my mouth.

Afraid to try on jeans..
I have NOTHING to wear..
Don’t! take! my! picture!..
I’m soo fat.. (I am SURE RWH is T-i-R-e-D of hearing this one)

Where is the balance between eating anything I want while pretending I don’t care how I look and maintaining such a strict diet that I make myself and everyone else miserable all the while obsessively weighing myself 23 times per day (eek! I gained .5lbs!)? And… how do I get there?

I day dream about that balance…
It looks like:

walk tall and stand up straight and yes I can go out to eat and self-esteem and control and laid back and energy and happiness and take my picture! and I love my body (yesterday, today and tomorrow) and this is me now and yes! I have lost weight! thank you for noticing! and just say NO! to yo-yo dieting and healthy and variety and dessert sometimes and no more diet pills and no more fad diets and inner beauty=outer beauty and no more gimmicks and PEACE

I want I want I want BALANCE NOW.

What day is it? Is there something in the air? Is it a full moon? Because I am sitting here at my desk, staring at my computer screen tearing up. For. No. Damn. Reason.

That’s. All.

Introducing: TheSecretGreenhouse Blog

A little while ago I told you about my Momma’s new jewelery business available on Etsy*. Well, now she has added a blog to keep her customers posted on all that’s new in her little shop and also what she’s been up to at “the farm”.

So, if you are looking to add another Blog to your reading list stop by, get caught up and maybe say hello! THESECRETGREENHOUSEBLOG Pssst… you can probably even get some embarassing stories about me out of her.

P.S. If I remember, tomorrow I will post a pic of the fabulous earrings that I scooped up from her shop (before anyone else could). And, yes! I paid FULL price for them… gladly.

26 things to do before I turn 27*

• Read 20 Books
• Lose the Weight I have Gained Since I Lost the Weight
• Schedule a Closet Analysis with Rachel Winters Bagley
• Spend a Day at the Rose Bowl Flea Market
• Blog Regularly (2-3 Times Per Week)
• Organize my: Personal Papers, Bills, Important Documents, etc.
• Abstain from Eating Red Meat
• Express my Appreciation/Love to (3) Special People in my Life in a Creative Way
• Go on a Picnic with RWH
• Visit my Grandpa
• Learn Photoshop
• Sell Something(s) on Etsy
• Visit a Place I Have Never Been Before
• Sing Karaoke
• Learn How to Use the Manual Settings on my Fancy Camera
• Keep a Food Diary for 30 Days Straight
• Meet RWH’s Papa
• Learn How to Read/Follow a Crochet Pattern
• Create an Art Space and Use it
• Bake a Cake
• Find an Occasion Appropriate for my Nanny’s Amazing Red Coat
• Visit the Biosphere2
• Go to the Doctor and Get my “Sweat Issues” Worked Out
• Use my Crockpot (and my Crockpot cookbook) 
• Volunteer 100 Hours of my Time
• Purchase a Cute Pair of Yellow Shoes

*I love to read lotsa Blogs. Lots of the people I actually know that write Blogs have “referred” me to other great Blogs. This is a Blog that I have just started reading recently (and thoroughly enjoy!) and was inspired to create this list by this post.

Pooop

Has it really been twenty days since I posted something clever?
Am I currently sitting in front of my computer STARING & struggling to write?
Have I eaten WAY too many milky way midnight minis today?
Are the milky way midnight minis on my desk supposed to be reserved for my co-workers?
Could this be one of the reasons that I feel like a KILLER WHALE right now?
Do I love my Mr. Hunter?
Does he love me despite the fact that I am a grumpy KILLER WHALE lately?
Did we go on an adventure this weekend?
Did we go to Sedona?
Was it HEAVEN?
Do I spend waaay too much time on Etsy?
Am I excited to watch the season finale of The Colony tonight?
Am I still torn?
Do I love Arizona but painfully long to be in California… right. this. very. minute?
Is it just because I miss my Auntie… my Uncle and my amazing friends?
Did I underappreciate the above mentioned people when I lived in California?
Do I currently beat myself up because of that fact?
Do I struggle with the fact that I work for a GI-normous corporation?
Do I really enjoy my job?
Do I have more questions than answers?
Am I confused most of the time about where I am headed?
Do I feel secure where I am at RIGHT NOW?

YES